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Well alot has changed since i last wrote. I am now married to a wonderful guy named warren. He has made my life so wonderful. Ya its rough right now but we will figure it out. I am twenty one now and i cant be any more happier than i am now. I finally understand things clearly. Life is not what you wait to happen its what you make happen and that is the best advice i can give anyone. |
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Well i am doing good as of now been struggling mentally with allot of things i have done in my past and feelings i have its always a hard time of year for me my mom died on the tenth and my uncle died on xmas so i stuggle with the holidays casue it just brings up bad memories of what had happend i am greatful for friends and family i get to spend xmas with my aunt and uncle and some other ppl in my family i am looking foward to it like no other i can get a vacation form my boyfriend things are ok between us but i need a break and so does he. i am going to move out for a couple of months so i can do my last run of being immature and having all the fun i can before this summer when me and mike get married. i am excited yet scared cause its unknown. and i will admit i am afriad of the unknown. its weird that looking in the futur ei know he will be there for me. for the rest of our lifes and more i am not used to looking into the future and seeing good things i guess its ok. it will be fine i keep telling myself and hopefully it will well enough of me ranting i will have to for now later and happy hollidays to all my friends i hope all is well and u guys are doing well.
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What kind of witch are you?
You are a Dark Witch! You are more powerful than witches of the Four Material Elements, and everyone knows it. Your powers stem from darkness and the night. Many have shunned you, and called you evil, even though you may not be. Most of the time, you try not to pick sides, only maintain the balance of nature. You love people, but refuse to show it, afraid that people will use it as a weapon against you, even if you could kill them with a thought. But you wouldn't do something like that....would you?Common Powers: Telekinesis- the ability to move objects with ones mindAstral Projection- the ability to project a copy of one's soul to another location, retaining all the sensesTelepathy- the ability to read thoughts, and plant themNight Vision-the ability to see in pitch blackness perfectly.Dark Weaving- the ability to conjure and control shadow creatures, objects, and spells that nothing can destroy or kill but the user.
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 | You scored as Dracula. You are the smooth sexy cool Dracula. Patient and lustful. If you were any cooler youd be ice. Great style with a way of seducing those around you. And three brides who wouldn't want to be him.
Dracula | | 100% | Lestat | | 83% | Spike | | 75% | Marius | | 58% | Blade | | 58% | Akasha | | 50% | Louis | | 50% | Angel | | 50% | Deacon Frost | | 50% | Armand | | 50% | </td>
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Can you hear me? Can you see me? Why wont you answer? Why wont you speak to me? all questions go unanswerd with you. I sit and wait for you worrying each time you may not come home to me. i cant stop this feeling of loneliness even when you are with me. I cant help but think that you dont want to be with me. i dont know what to do i dont know where to go. i cry myself to sleep and you never notice. i cant believe that someone can be that oblivios. do you love me anymore? i wish i knew. because its getting hard to see. why do you do this to me. |
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y wont u talk to me? y dont u listen? i dont understand you. im feeling like we are going no where, maybe its me maybe its you, but y wont u tell me? i cant talk to you cause im scared of what u will say i cant say whats in my heart. high or not u need to tell me y is she still her and y u wont let her go? do u not see what this is doing to me? im sorry for all the shit that u have been through but baby please please let me know if i am just wasting my time on loving you. |
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| You Are Vanilla Ice Cream | 
Your personality is anything but "vanilla"
You're a risk taker, who's up for anything new.
You go well with anyone and fit into any situation.
You are most compatible with rocky road ice cream. |
| Your Five Variable Love Profile | 
Propensity for Monogamy:
Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.
Experience Level:
Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!
Dominance:
Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.
Independence:
Your independence is low.
This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships..
It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life.
In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together. |
| You Belong in San Diego | 
Laid back and friendly, you were meant to live most of your life on the beach.
You usually think everything is "all good"... except when the weather dips under 60F.
You stay classy - especially when you're in Tijuana! |
| Your Birthdate: April 21 | 
You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature.
Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas.
People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life.
You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone.
Your strength: Your thirst for adventure
Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures
Your power color: Hot pink
Your power symbol: Figure eight
Your power month: March |
| You Are 57% Addicted to Love | 
Might as well face it, you're addicted to love.
You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it?
Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships.
Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself! |
| Your IQ Is 95 | 
Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average
Your General Knowledge is Average |
| You Will Die at Age 55 | 
Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle
Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits. |
| You Should Be Fashion Designer | 
Although you're offbeat and artistic, you have a good eye for trends
You can figure out new incredible clothes to create... that will sell well! |
| You Should Be A Cancer | 
What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous
What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand
In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection
In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support
Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure
Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood
You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese |
| Your Hair Should Be Blue | 
Wild, brilliant, and out of control.
You're a risk taker with an eye to the future. |
| You Have a Choleric Temperament | 
You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.
You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.
At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior. |
| You Are 25% Redneck | 
The wheels still turning, but the hamster's dead.
You're just fakin' bein' a redneck. |
| Erotic Thriller | 
You've made your own rules in life - and sometimes that catches up with you.
Winding a web of deceit comes naturally, and no one really knows the true you.
Your best movie matches: Swimming Pool, Unfaithful, The Crush |
| You Should Be A Poet | 
You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways.
And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery...
Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever.
You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem. |
| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
| Your True Love Is a Cancer | 
Why you'll love a Cancer:
Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.
Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!
Why a Cancer will love you:
You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.
A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you. |
| Your Theme Song is Groove is in the Heart by Dee-lite | 
"We're going to dance
And have some fun"
For you, life should be one huge party...
And even though it's not, you tend to dance your troubles away! |
| Your Eyes Should Be Violet | 
Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure
What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion |
| You Are 80% Sociopath | 
The good news is that you're devastatingly charming.
The bad news? You mostly use those charms for evil! |
| Your Personality Is |
Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
| You Belong in 1967 |
If you scored...
1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!
1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.
1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!
1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.
1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good! |
| You Are Midnight | 
You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.
Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.
Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.
You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends. |
| Your Mood Ring is Light Blue | 
Emotions mixed
Unsettled
Cool |
| Your Love Style is Agape | 
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. |
| You Are 60% Abnormal | 
You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.
You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.
You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection.
You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.
You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. |
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Turn your music onto random. Take the song you're listening to and start, press next and continue to answer the questions.... How am I feeling today?
nightwish- Wishmaster Will I get far in life?
bush- comedown How do my friends see me?
concrete blonde- tommorrow wendys gonna die Where will I/where did I get married?
mozart master mix- moonlight What is my best friend's theme song?
moby- the sky is broken What is the story of my life?
london oratory school scholars-The grey havens What was high school like?
smouth mouth- all star How can I get ahead in life?
Marilyn manson- suicide is painless What is the best thing about me?
Skinny puppy- neuwerld What is today going to be like?
Kdfdm-dogma What is in store for this weekend?
beetthoven- fifth suite What song describes my parents? selena- dreamin of you How is my life going?
ben delmaestro-Minas tiriyh What song will be played at my funeral? pink floyd- wish you were here How does the world see me?
smashing pumpkins- disarm Will I have a happy life? morrisey- im so sorry What do my friends really think of me? the gathering- a life all mine Do people secretly lust after me?
rare blend- boom boom boom How can I make myself happy?
nightwish- gothic sanctuary What should I do with my life?
the dust brothers feat. tyler durden- this is your life |
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| You Are Mystique | 
Sneaky and duplicitous, you're likely to use your powers for evil.
You're eternally young looking, people don't realize how old you really are!
Powers: Shapeshifting - you can impersonate other people or become a monster |
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Life is going on while i am staying in one spot. i cant move i cant breath, no one is thier to help me. i am fighting a battle with myself. one that can be life or death, I see what i am doing and i cant stop myself, destroying all that is important to me. i cant do this anymore. i cant care, everyone in my path will fall. i am filled with rage that cant be stopped. i cant be helped. run while you can and never go back, |
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what have you done to me why is everything so hard. i cant escape this pain i feel i want to just die. i want to end everything that has ever been done to me. life has no meaning anymore all i can do is cry i cant take it any more the knife feels smooth agianst my skin. the cut stings but its pleasure soon i will be gone. |
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life is so confusing trying to tell myself i dont love him so i wont be hurt, but it just dont work i dont know what to do or what to say. he changed over the weekend became sweeter nice, and more loving. maybe i need to be apart from him more often. i love him and i cant escape it. well i guess i better get going. well ya i dont know
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ever feel like you want to scream and just say fuck it i dont care. i dont want to care anymore. everyone just leave me alone and do what they want. I am trying to fix things and figure out things that right now i dont want to. i want to live without regrets. i want just to be me not think about life before me or behind me. i just want to live in the present i mean we never know when we will die or what will happen to change our lives life right now is confusing enough.i dont need anything else to fuck it up. i hate people for a reason, they just get u caught up in their problems and drag u in the middle of everything. they wont leave u alone. there are very few ppl that i dont care to hear about thier problems or get drag into thier stuff. it dont bug me with them but everyone else i do. i mean amy, mike, kevin. it dont bug me. i dont mind hearing out u guys letting u guys vent or whatever. its ppl who keep complaining about nothing. and complain about the same damn thing repeditaly thats whats pisses me off. i hate people so leave me alone. |
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I should be out in that driveway stopping you Tears should be rolling down my cheek And I don't know why I'm not falling apart Like I usually do And how the thought of losing you's not killing me I feel bad That I can stand here strong Cold as stone, Seems so wrong I can't explain it Maybe it's just I've cried so much I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it I feel bad that I don't feel bad I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about you throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad
That I don't feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on |
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I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow, And each road leads you where you want to go, And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you. And if one door opens to another door closed, I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window, If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile, More then anything, more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish. I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more then you take. Oh More then anything, Yeah, and more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish. |
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